I went to her room. She was a heavy set woman in her fifties, older than my mom. She sort of looked at me. I said I wanted to go to college. She kind of sneered and said don't bother. You are not college material. I will not help you.
Anything else said was drowned out with discouragement. I just got up and left. She would not listen to me, never had. She was a woman set in her ways and opinions. Looking back of different things she had said in the past she was dead wrong about everything.
I went home. My oldest brother was there. He listened to me and said, "Apply on your own, don't listen to her." So simple his words, only a hero could lift my spirits. He was in college, he couldn't write well but he sure could do math, I realized later that he was a genius at math. He was in engineering, it was mostly math.
He said sign up for the SAT tests, the college entrance exams. I did and I was scheduled. i did not know how to prepare so I just dreamt about what it would be like, had a lot of apprehension. Who was right, the counselor or mr brother. I had to try, I could not live with more failure, I had to try. The day grew near.
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